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25 April 2010 @ 06:02 am
Plunnies? In your head? It's more likely than you think.  
I'm writing this hot and piping out of my head, even though I doubt I'll write it, or have time to write it. Also so far I just have this basic premise for the story in my head. I'm not experienced in writing the aftermath of a scene, or really connecting the scenes. I'm better at just writing the scenes I think of and then being done with it.

IT'S ANALOGOUS TO THIS: I JUST HAD SEX WITH YOU. BUT I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO DO NEXT AND AM AFRAID OF COMMITMENT. SO I MAYBE HAVE A CIGARETTE AND THEN LEAVE BEFORE THE MORN DAWNS. YOU GET NO CUDDLING. NO FLUFF. JUST POST-COITAL ANGST.

So yeah. It's like that. And so I have ideas sometimes, but never really turn them into stories.

LIEK THIS ONE I JUST HAD TONIGHT, SET IN NU!VERSE

 For nu!Kirk, Tarsus IV never happened.

 But two years into their 5 year mission, Kirk starts having nightmares and is experiencing/living through Tarsus as if he were really there.

During the first year of their mission, he had also had other flashes of things that hadn't happened, or had yet to occur, or that would never occur, but they were always mild, and occurred on a level that Kirk would utilize their knowledge if needed, but not have any conscious awareness of the origin of such knowledge. Aka, Jim Kirk would experience flashes of the other Kirk's life, but he wouldn't remember on a active level that they had occurred, and would be able to use the knowledge gained from them without realizing that it was knowledge that he wasn't supposed to have.

 But the nightmares are different. They stand out, and the emotions they evoke stand out. Kirk starts to notice the memories, slowly. The nightmares start when the enterprise is assigned a mission to go to a planet to aid in  rescue and recovery after an incident  resembling the other universe's Tarsus IV occurs. Or alternatively, the nu!universe could actually have the Tarsus IV genocide occur then (I can't decide which scenario I'd prefer to happen more yet).

 When he gets the orders, Kirk is able to remain outwardly calm and in command, but as each minute passes after relaying the change of course to his crew, he realizes that an irrational level of panic inside him is building to uncontrollable levels. He excuses himself from the bridge in a casual way, proceeding to go to his quarters. Or he manages to make it through the rest of the shift without breaking, and Spock may or may not take notice of how the captain seems a bit more pale than usual, or that his heart rate is up higher than it should be. Or maybe he picks up on Jim's emotions, because they're that strong.

 A side note: During the first year the relationships between the officers and Kirk have grown stronger, and while there is not any romance between the two, Spock and Kirk are getting closer to becoming BFFs. Jim and Bones are already at BFF status. While I love to read slash, I also like het!fic, and adore gen!fic the most. So this fic could be any of the three, really. If someone wants Spock to be Jim's bondmate, that's fine. It could be that sometime during the first year of the mission Spock and Uhura have terminated their romantic relationship, but managed to keep a friendship. The way I see it, Kirk's officers and crew are well on their way to loving the crazy bastard.

 Anyway, Once in his quarters Kirk drops the pretenses completely, and is alarmed at the emotions that overwhelm him when he does. Once the panic attack passes, and Jim is not about to admit that he just experienced a panic attack, he's exhausted, and falls into a fitful bout of sleep.

 So it turns out that when that mind meld happened on Delta Vega, a lot of the other Kirk's memories, which had been shared with the other Spock in mind melds due either to their close  friendship or intimate relationship, were transferred to nu!Kirk. They were transferred without the other Spock realizing it because his mental control was compromised at the time. This was due to his highly emotional state at all that had occurred (ie: losing his planet, seeing Jim alive and well again, guilt at seeing the planet destroyed). The memories weren't noticed by Jim because they were mainly remnants, copies coming from a second source, aka it was like he received a photo copy of something that was already a photo copy, so the intensity had died down. And so their presence in Jim's mind was lessened in magnitude to the point they were often merely impressions or emotions which could be mistaken by Jim as his intuition screaming at him. This which explains why Jim didn't notice the memories and how they could influence his command decisions, etc.

 But the memories of Tarsus IV were too potent and strong for the fact that they were secondhand to dilute their intensity. So nu!Kirk finds himself reliving Tarsus IV in his dreams, not as an observer but as if he really were the other Kirk. The intensity of the memories also makes the way the dreams occur set in stone; so even as it is this Kirk acting in the dreams, his mind adheres to the original memories, making it so that even if there is variation, the events play out ultimately the same as they had for the other Kirk. 

HHHNGH I WISH I COULD WRITE THIS FIC SO BAD. LIKE THE BURNING. EVER SINCE I FIRST SAW THE MOVIE I WAS ALL LIKE: WHAT IF THAT MELD LEFT SOMETHING BEHIND? AND THEN I SAW OTHER PEOPLE HAD THE SAME IDEA AND WAS DELIGHTED TO READ THOSE FICS. OF COURSE THAT NOW MEANS THAT THE MINDMELD DEVICE IS CLICHED TO BE USED IN SUCH A FASHION, BUT *SHRUG*. I LOVE THIS PLOT DEVICE TOO MUCH TO LET IT'S WIDELY USED STATUS GET IN THE WAY OF MY ENJOYMENT OF IT.
 
 
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